Edition note: Independently rewritten for English-language readers from the Chinese essay’s argument and close reading. Full-book spoilers.
Nagasawa has every advantage and uses it well: wealth, Tokyo University law, intelligence, discipline, and entry into the Foreign Ministry. He is the only major character whose path works from beginning to end.
He also explains his rules without disguise. He reads only writers dead for thirty years because time has not yet tested the living. He considers self-pity contemptible. He sleeps with scores of women and keeps count. He tells his girlfriend Hatsumi that loving her and having sex with others are separate facts; marriage would not change him.
Nothing is hidden. The terms are available before the injury. This apparent honesty becomes its own closure. Hatsumi cannot expose a deception because there is none. She can accept or leave, and she accepts for years.
Later Nagasawa goes to Germany. Hatsumi marries someone else, then dies by suicide. Watanabe ends his friendship with Nagasawa.
Honesty has not protected the person most honestly addressed. It has protected the speaker from the claim that he misrepresented himself. A relation is not made mutual merely because one party publishes the rules under which he will use it.
The available choice—accept or leave—sounds like freedom, but it leaves the terms untouched. Hatsumi is never allowed to help decide the rules by which her life is being used.
Nagasawa is not simply cruel. He is loyal in friendship, helps Watanabe, keeps promises, and does not cheat in ordinary dealings. His central habit is to make people countable without feeling contradiction. Affection for Hatsumi occupies one account; other women occupy another; ambition remains untouched by either.
The method is effective. Diplomatic institutions reward a person who is capable, steady, and unwilling to let private entanglements interrupt public work. Nagasawa pays an internal price in advance: he stores away whatever would allow another person’s suffering to revise the system.
He believes Watanabe is the same kind of man because neither expects the world to give him anything. He is only half right. Watanabe follows him on some nights but stops. More importantly, Watanabe cannot separate body, attachment, memory, and debt into clean columns. He remains bound to Naoko long after calculation would recommend departure.
This does not automatically make Watanabe morally superior. His inability to choose also hurts Midori. The difference is not goodness but what each man permits another person to alter.
After Hatsumi’s death, Watanabe remembers the nameless longing she awakened in him—something from childhood, useless for advancement and impossible to quantify. He realizes that he had once relinquished it.
Nagasawa’s world can account for every visible decision except the longing Hatsumi awakened in another person. She bears the cost of the system’s accuracy, while Watanabe’s grief begins where its categories end.
Haruki Murakami’s Norwegian Wood, first published in 1987. Full-book spoilers.
版本说明:中文原作;简体与繁体同页切换。全文剧透。
永泽是渡边在宿舍里认识的学长。
这个人的条件是这样的:东京大学法学部,成绩极好,家里有钱,父亲开医院,哥哥是医生。他自己不打算做医生,他要考外务省,去做外交官。
后来他考上了。
他是这本书里唯一一个把整条路走通了的人。
他也是这本书里唯一一个把自己的做法完整说出来的人。
他的规矩有几条,书里都写着。
第一条:他只读死了三十年以上的作家。理由是他不信任还活着的人写的东西——没有经过时间筛过的东西,不值得花工夫。
第二条:他不同情自己。他跟渡边说过一句,大意是同情自己是卑劣懦夫干的勾当。
第三条:他跟很多女人睡觉。数目他自己记着,七十几个。他约女人不费什么力气,去酒吧走一圈就带一个回来。他也带渡边去过几次。
这几条凑在一起是一套完整的办法,而且他从来不遮掩。
他对渡边说过,你和我是同一类人:我们都不指望别人给我们什么。
这句话有一半是对的。
现在说初美。
初美是永泽的女朋友,跟了他很多年。她出身好,人温和,长得不算特别漂亮,可是待人极好。渡边跟她吃过几次饭,很喜欢她。
永泽跟那七十几个女人睡觉这件事,初美是知道的。
书里有一场戏专门写这个。三个人一起吃饭,初美当着渡边的面问永泽,问他为什么要这样。
永泽答得很坦白。他说这两件事不冲突:他喜欢初美,这是一回事;他跟别的女人睡觉,是另一回事。他还说,如果初美要嫁给他,他也可以,只是他不会因此改变。
他说的每一句话都是实话,也都是先摆在明面上的。
初美没有闹。她坐在那里,慢慢地把话说完。
那一顿饭之后,渡边和初美一起打台球,然后他送她回去。
这本书里,被说得最坦白的那个人,是被伤得最重的那个。
因为坦白之后,她就再没有什么可以拿来抗议的东西了——他没有骗她,没有瞒她,条件是一开始就摆出来的。
要么接受,要么走。
把单方面的规则提前说清,并不会让一段关系因此成为双方共同决定的关系。初美可以留下或离开,却从未被允许参与制定那套会落在她生活上的规则。
她接受了很多年。
后来永泽去了德国。两年之后初美嫁了别人,又过两年,她割腕死了。
渡边听到这件事,写了一封信给永泽,绝交。
他后来写过一段关于初美的话,写的是这个女人在他心里唤起过的那样东西——那是一种他很久以前就丢掉了的、说不出名字的憧憬。
他在她身上看见的,是自己已经不打算再有的那一部分。
现在把永泽这个人的位置摆清楚。
他不是坏人,这一点书里没有含糊。他讲义气,帮过渡边不少忙,说话算数,做事有分寸。他跟人交往从来不占便宜,也不撒谎。
他做的事情只有一样:他把人当作可以计算的东西,而且他从不为此感到别扭。
这一套办法在他那条路上是好用的。外务省要的正是这样的人:能力强,情绪稳,不会因为个人的事情坏了公事。
他也确实走通了。
渡边的整本书,就是在做一件事:不变成这个人。
这件事书里没有让他说过一次。
可是每一处都在做:他不肯用永泽那套办法带女孩回去(虽然跟着去过几次,后来就不去了);他不肯像永泽那样把感情和身体分开算;他为了直子那件事把自己搭进去很久,明知道那不划算。
永泽算得很准。渡边一次也没算过。
这两个人最后的分别,不在于谁更善良。
分别在于:永泽那套办法要求他先把自己的一部分收起来,而他收起来了;渡边没有收。
初美是那个替这件事付账的人。
书里写她死后,渡边一个人在海边坐着,想起了一个东西:那是很小的时候的一个黄昏,一种再也回不来的心情。
他说他终于明白,初美在他心里唤起的就是那个。
那个东西没有名字。
它也没有用处。
注:本文所据为村上春树《挪威的森林》,赖明珠译(台版)。